waterproof

I am thirsty for you
I need you in my mouth

I want to wash my eyes
Out with your sweat so
That you dry into my vision
So my visions are only of you

I am careful with you
I will not tell you how much I want you

You are a fairy, a ghost, an empty promise
I only want you because you are empty

But wanting you has become an empty ache
In my storm

I am invisible to you,
Like fine rain
You should feel my touch on your skin but you are
Waterproof

Ice and light

Trying to skate
Through this year
Of loss without
The ice creeping up
My ankles

Without
My skates
Drinking through to the
Water underneath

The water is thirsty for me
But I fell in love
Unexpectedly
With the sun

Now I am in a race
In a balancing act

In a beautiful
Coital
Coil
With light and ice

Breath is
Warmth and death

Cold is burning
Dread and laughing
Safety, a hope

That hops out ahead of me
Teasing me into following
The lines of my skates

Inscribing love poems
To the sun
To the skin of winter
To the death that came, the one what will not come

The ones I hold in holes in my teeth
Crying with my mouths closed
To keep them close

all in the same second

my heart is being burrowed
open
by earthworms and skyfish

lightening in summer
warm wormholes in winter

all in the same second

i want to kiss you
i want to drown

i grow like
moss with a bad sense of direction

i love
like a broken compass

love me like
earthworms
loving the rain
by instinct

by necessity

when we know hope is
cruel
and happy is false

we grow determined

feet planted strong as
river current

as gentle as
nothing gentle at all

all in the same second

Up

There is an
Aspiration for up
When sideways might be more full of joy
When down might be more realistic

When losing momentum and
Staying
Willfully
Might be braver, even

But the sky still governs our senses
As impossible as the stars will always be
Our orientation remains,
Stubbornly
Stunningly

Up

Mirror

I have been used
To mirroring you

Your rage
Your joy
Your twists

I unentangled myself
From you by
Chewing through my
Veins

Quenching the bloodflow
With my fingers

Sewing myself back together
With skin gathered from
Lashes on my back

It is just after the operation
I am in isolation
Finding my mouth again

Finding pockets of emptiness
Looking absently for a mirror
To find you in
To fill me again, then

My veins remind me of how I
Had to tear them from you
My arms bare the scars of my stitches,

To ease the emptiness ache, then
I have to relearn my own reflection

Palm

My palm lies on yours
An anxiety of skin
What peace does love bring?

Made of Volcanoes

It appears you have forgotten
What you are made of
As you creep into a room
Head down

Shrinking into yourself

Trying to make yourself
As close to
Disappearing as you can

Raise your head
Open your mouth and
Roar
You are the World

You are made of Volcanoes
Magma flowering in your hair

You are made of Opera songs
Vibrations of impossible notes
Humming in your teeth

You are made of Tides
Extra terrestrial forces
Licking your soles

You are made of Winter
Crackling things dry
Storing life and death in your joints
Showing yourself brilliant in
Stark Sun

Unshrink yourself darling
Come into yourself

The years will unfold around you
Summon them with your Roar that
Sounds like

Opera songs exploding in Winter Waves
Wrap yourself in your own delight
You are the World
Too full of wonder to make yourself Small